Friday, May 05, 2006

Where to go in life?

One of the burdens of being in between jobs is the amount of time you have to question yourself, your purpose and where you want your life to go. I'm surrounded by these types of questions every day with little distraction and am slowly driving myself insane.

I'm smack in the middle of the interview process and am torn about which direction I want my career to go in. Each of the opportunities in front of me is different and has its own set of pros and cons. The challenging thing about being in limbo at age 28 is that I have to begin thinking about the future. The only difficulty is that I don't know where I want my future to go.

Being 28 is a weird age. I'm definitely post-college, am pretty established in my career, am in a committed relationship, living in a location I like but am still confused and not content. I feel as though I can't live life on a whim anymore and that freaks me out because that is something I've always had in my back pocket. It's not that I've shirked responsibilities because I've worked very hard to be able to frolic around and land back on my feet. It's just that I feel as though I should be making my life more stable, whatever that means.

I partially blame society for putting these subconscious life timeframes in to people's heads, especially mine. So where am I going with these ramblings? I have no idea. All I know is that tomorrow is another day full of possibilities. What society hasn't taken from me is the belief that I'll know where to turn when the moment arises.

1 Comments:

Blogger stephanie said...

Jess, I totally thought all of those things, and forced myelf to conform to job, relationship, city, etc. But then, as you know, I found out that no matter how hard you try and plan and make yourself stick to a plan that doesn't feel right, life's master plan will catch up with you and force you to see that you need to not do what you "should" do, but what you feel is the best thing for you. Truly, no matter what that is. I can say with all honesty that I never in a million years "planned" to live in FL or be with my fabulous Peter, or about to start teaching middle school, but letting go and listening to my heart led me here and I have never been happier. Let go of the "shoulds" and listen to your heart!! And you never have to give yourself up to "settle" down, life is certainly a continous journey! Good luck!

5/16/2006 11:22 AM  

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